I have been having trouble getting over an old flame of mine. He was such a sweetheart to me, never did anything wrong. It was me who waited too long and then he got away, but I want him back as a friend, at least. I'm okay with him having a girlfriend now, that is seriously okay with me, I just want my guy buddy back...the one I used to Skype IM all the time and get hugs from even though he was 5 hours away. I want to tell him all this too, but I'm afraid he'll get mad at me for suggesting such things, as he has been proven to be able to get angry about them before. Oh well... I guess I'll just sulk in my room, and think about all the good times we've had...
I guess in the end, I am over him...but I just want my friend back.
I felt as though it's better to get this all out of my system, since I can't actually tell anyone in person right now other than my co-workers and sister... I don't know; maybe I was even hoping for some odd reason that he'd find this journal and read it so he can see that I miss my dear friend, Vinny...
Love,
Senescence